I don't mean to turn this into a negative post, but it's how I'm feeling today. I literally am feeling unappreciated. Not only at work, but at home. Maybe even moreso at home. The girls have terrible manners--and I hate to nag--but I find myself doing it all the time. They are lazy--they hate to pick up their toys--the shoes or coats don't go in the garage when they take them off--or when they do they are just thrown in there. Sad to say I'm doing the same thing because I'm so sick of it that I just have to not care--but the problem is I do. I nag Kory a lot lately too I think. I don't mean to, but some days I have just had enough, and to see what is going on around my house literally makes me not care. This gets back to the title of this blog ". . . loads of laundry". I know it bugs Kory that I don't hang clothes up after I wash them--but why should I? Why should I even try to keep anything straight at my house, because the second I do, it just goes back to the same old bad habits, and I'm the only one trying to change them (and obviously the nagging doesn't work). Then, there will be one day where I get mad enough and everybody gets whipped into shape, and then that's as long as it lasts, and once again I am discouraged. Why is this? Why does it have to be this way? Did Kory's mom pick up everything for him? I don't know--he is way better at hanging up his laundry than I am mine--but other than that, there are things that are just left wherever they land. And not that I'm perfect about it either, but every time I come up with a system it just gets screwed up.
Another thing today--I asked Kory if he had anything planned for Mother's Day, and he said no. Hmmm--I'm a little hurt. He hadn't even given it a thought. Now granted, I get some pretty nice things from Kory, and he's usually pretty thoughtful, but lately maybe I've been too big of a witch for him to care. I don't know. I was basically asking because I was going to have Mom come out for dinner on Sunday, but if he had something planned I would do it Saturday. Then he asked me what I wanted to do. What? What happened to just taking the initiative and planning something? Maybe he thinks that I won't be happy with his choice, so it's just easier not to do anything. I really don't know.
I don't mean to sound ungrateful. . . because I am pretty blessed in this life. . . but this is how I am feeling today.
2 comments:
Oh...let's not even go there on the issue of "planning" birthdays or Mother's Day. John stinks at that...and I always get hurt. Several people have told me to not let it bug me...but it does.
As for housecleaning and laundry, my life is out of control. I loved this post because those are some of the same thoughts that I have.
It's always nice to know that you are not alone in your situation--it always helps me. I'm just lucky that my laundry room isn't any bigger or I would have an even bigger disaster--as it stands now I can barely walk into it because of all the 'clean' clothes that are on the floor waiting to be sorted and hung!
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