That is what my girls have said over and over tonight. They say it with enthusiasm, I say it with dread. Dread because I'm not sure I am done with my shopping. Dread because every time I turn around I think of another person I forgot to send a Christmas card to. Dread because I still haven't gone grocery shopping for whatever it is I am going to make to take to my sister's on Christmas. Dread because it's cold and snowing. Dread because tomorrow is Syd's Christmas program, and I'm worried she will throw a fit in the morning because her dress will be too itchy or her socks will be bugging her. Dread because I still don't know why I'm having these terrible pains in my back even after having a CT scan to check for kidney stones. Dread because I'm not sure I have enough work done before I take a few days off. Oh I could go on and on--well I guess I already did. But, that's not how I want to feel right now. . . I want to get back that feeling I had when I was little and it seemed like FOREVER until Christmas got here. . .
So, I will put a more positive spin on things. . . I'm excited to see the girls' faces and hear their (hopefully!) squeals Thursday morning when they open their presents. I'm excited that the stress of the holiday will be over by then. I'm excited to open my own presents--yes I'm like a little kid as well--I can't stand not knowing what's in those boxes under the Christmas tree. I'm excited to go to Syd's program and have some time off of work. I'm excited that Christmas dinner is not at my house.
Pretty sad I can come up with more items of dread than excitement huh? Does that tell you what kind of frame of mind I am in? I will try tomorrow to be more positive. . . because then it will only be TWO more days until Christmas, and I will have even less time to know if I have the same number of presents for the girls. . . oh goodness here I go again. I'm going to bed and not going to think about this stuff!!!
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